“So what are you doing now?”
– everyone, all the time
Right? So just over two months ago I left ministry. It was crushing and hard and all of the things I knew it would be. Ministry is everything I wanted and everything I knew I would do for the rest of my life. So how did I end up here? How is God still working in this? Are we sure it was supposed to end up like this?
This season, though. It has been healing and life giving. I’ve done a lot of things and a lot of reflecting in that time. I’ve been writing and reading and listening. I’ve slept in and I’ve eaten all of the food and finally reached Chick-fil-A red status.
I’ve prayed my heart out while sweating in yoga and I’ve run on the treadmill while watching Marvel movies (I’m an Infinity War away from being caught up), pretending I was as athletic as Scarlett Johansson.
I’ve been still when I felt the Lord tell me to be still and I’ve wanted to run away. I’ve had conversations that have shaped me and will continue to mend my heart.
I applied to go back to school for summer, but didn’t get into school 🤷🏻♀️ but have complete peace about that. I’ve picked up all of the side jobs (because everyone needs an Aunt Carol to employ them) and worked a bunch of events (who knew I would ever use my degree in it’s actual field).
But this season is not forever. So what’s next?
1. I’ve been doing some contract work for a company called JDLA. I do grant writing and research for non profits and I actually really super love it a lot (shoutout to Corner Perk for being my office a few days a week and my boss Helen who was my mentor in college…and also now). I never realized this would be a thing, but it’s kind of a thing. Basically there’s a lot of money in the world and I write long letters asking if a certain non profit can have it.
2. On May 1st, I’ll be starting something really cool. My friend Samantha Allgire is 15 and has a few disabilities that prevent her from living a completely normal life. She has a friend named Shannon who hangs out with her every day and teaches her life skills, but her friend is getting married (🥳) and moving to England 🏴. So her family and I decided that I’ll start hanging out with Sam. So my new job will look a little different and have some different hours, but we are all really excited about it. She loves elevators and ice cream and pranks. She knows I hate ketchup and I get a text asking if I’m ready to eat it every 👏🏼 single 👏🏼 day 👏🏼.
God has been really faithful in all of this. I think the most beautiful thing I’m learning (and honestly I always said I knew it, but I really didn’t) is that my whole life is ministry. I thought all of the real ministry was happening in the walls of the church, but it turns out there’s some stuff to do out here too.